Feeling like a freak is never easy. You feel incredibly out of touch with other people, it makes you think that no matter what you do or say, people are judging you or laughing at you. You never quite feel like you blend in right in social situations, it’s awkward. It’s an uncomfortable feeling. Being odd is like having spinach stuck in your teeth, you’re aware of it and so is everyone else.
I have always felt different from others but doesn’t everybody? We all feel disconnected from each other sometimes, so when we find a common interest or passion, it allows us to click with each other on another level. That is what cosplaying does for me, it allows me to be creative.
My first ever cosplay was dressing up as my favorite comic book character, Harley Quinn.
I remember walking down to the lobby of the hotel room I was staying in, to join a group of friends who I was cosplaying with at a convention that evening, we were dressed as Batman villains. My heart was racing and it took me all the courage in the world to leave my hotel room in full costume. It was terrifying, nauseating and ridiculously liberating all at once! There really is something incredibly strange about being in costume when it’s not Halloween. It’s odd!
Once I got over the feeling of being stared at by strangers and having a few old people laugh at me in the elevator, I was on a high! I got loads of compliments on my costume and a few people took pictures with me, it was such a confidence boost. Since then I have cosplayed as Harley Quinn many times, sometimes I dress up as her just for kicks, even when I am not at a convention.
I understand that may sound very strange to anyone who doesn’t understand cosplaying but it’s so much fun! I don’t think people do enough of what makes them happy sometimes, in fear that others might think it’s weird or unconventional. If something brings you joy, you have to indulge in that passion, not matter what others think. After all, life is for living & you only live once!
In a previous blog post I explained my thoughts on Harley Quinn as a character but her character means more to me than just being someone fun to dress up as. I relate to her personally and I find her to be very enchanting. Cosplaying as Harley has given me more confidence in myself, by allowing me to not take everything so seriously. You’re never too old to have fun cosplaying!
Cosplaying has been a major part of my life for about two years now. I don’t get to cosplay as often as I would like but there’s something to be said about planning a future cosplay. It gets my creative juices flowing and makes me excited to share my costume with other fans.
People may laugh at me for dressing up as a comic book characters in my spare time but the way I see it, who cares? I have a blast! I get to chat with other people who share a common interest and let loose for the day. I find cosplaying to be stress-reliving and a way to build my self esteem.
Any time I explain to someone that I like to dress up as comic book characters and go to conventions, I am met with raised eyebrows or suppressed laughter. It doesn’t even bother me because I know that those people probably care too much about what others think about them, to ever enjoy something so authentically. Cosplaying and Sci-Fi Conventions have allowed me to meet some of the most wonderful people I have ever met. I’ve made life long friends and memories that will stick with me forever. It’s been a blessing in my life & I’m so thankful for it.
For a long time I felt like I didn’t have a creative outlet that allowed me to express myself and once I found cosplaying, it was like a light bulb went off in my head. This was the perfect way for me to combine my love for fashion and geeky stuff together! It was perfect for me, I could piece together an outfit and feel creatively satisfied at the beginning, middle & end of the process.
Harley Quinn is a huge part of my life and truly has changed my life for the better.
To quote Bertrand Russel, ‘Do not fear to be eccentric in opinion, for every opinion now accepted was once eccentric.’ Don’t be afraid to try something outside of the box, you might just enjoy it!